A Case of the Dreads!

Ugh! The time is approaching! I have a serious case of the dreads. I am dreading being alone again. I have my BFF, I have great friends, but its the time at night when you are done for the day and you sit on the couch alone. It's the worst time of day for me during a deployment. The kids are all settled, and it is calm and quiet, it sounds delightful, but it is in fact the worst. I hate the feeling of self pity I feel when deployment time comes around. It comes and goes, it's not a constant, but I despise it. So bear with me on days when I am feeling the dreads. Right now we are in that bizarre place, those of you who have had deployments know what I mean. You want to get going on the things you plan to do while they are away, but yet the thought of him leaving is heart wrenching. You want to spend every second with him, but at the same time everything he says or does is wrong or annoying, or just annoyingly wrong. You feel like time is a big jumbled mess of minutes, sometimes you feel like you have tons of time left, then you panic 15 minutes later when you realize that in fact time is nearly out and you have not gotten everything as prepared as you would have hoped. It's just a strange, strange thing to be in our house about now. Well, I guess I am done with my ramblings for now. Hope you are all having a great New Year so far.
Buh-bye!